Guess I'm not much into blogging now a days. A post after ages. But it's worth it.
2013 has been almost as normal as every year for many people but it played an important role in my life.
For me, the time passes very slow. I'm constantly thinking, trying to improve my life, every hour, every day, every month and every year. You can call it waiting. I wait a lot, for things to happen. The things which are not in control of me. On the other hand, the things which I have a control on, I do them in no time. But the path I'm following is 50% do, 50% wait.
The one thing I've understood about myself is that I don't work hard, I plan hard, I work less and get to the results. But the wait is long when it comes to results. I remember a thing I said to my mom few years back, "I'm born to design cars. It's the only thing I can do better. Either I design cars, or I be a beggar." Living a life I was living and in the place I was, it was very uncertain how I get to my dream. And I understand other people's lives are hard too. But uncertainty has been the constant pain in the back of my head, for years. I've been sketching cars for many years but I was not sure, if I can make it into a career. But I don't lose. Either I win or I wait until I win. So I did the same in 2012. You are supposed to find a job after completing your engineering in first class. But I stayed home. Everyone at home was disappointed. They were contacting relatives to get me a job. I was confused, "am I fooling myself?" A cocktail feeling of guilt, distress and uncertainty was the only thing I was waking up to, every day. But I had hope, confidence to be specific. I asked my mom and dad for one chance. "If don't get admission at NID this year, I will take it out of my head and find a job." They had to agree.
I knew this was my only chance, so I tried not to fuck up. I filled the form, I attended the exam, I passed, I made a portfolio and a model, I attended the studio test and the interview. And every step I mentioned in the previous sentence had intervals of months of uncertainty, mild depression and wait in them. And everything has to pay off somewhere. I got the admission. All the uncertainty in my life, I just picked it up in one hand threw it away. One thing I knew after this was that the biggest problem in my life till now, was solved and every other problem that'd occur after that was a piece of cake. So the year 2013 in months was not only a transition from depression to satisfaction but also a major transition in my life from uncertain to certain. God, this year was like a movie!
This was my 2013. How was yours?
2013 has been almost as normal as every year for many people but it played an important role in my life.
For me, the time passes very slow. I'm constantly thinking, trying to improve my life, every hour, every day, every month and every year. You can call it waiting. I wait a lot, for things to happen. The things which are not in control of me. On the other hand, the things which I have a control on, I do them in no time. But the path I'm following is 50% do, 50% wait.
The one thing I've understood about myself is that I don't work hard, I plan hard, I work less and get to the results. But the wait is long when it comes to results. I remember a thing I said to my mom few years back, "I'm born to design cars. It's the only thing I can do better. Either I design cars, or I be a beggar." Living a life I was living and in the place I was, it was very uncertain how I get to my dream. And I understand other people's lives are hard too. But uncertainty has been the constant pain in the back of my head, for years. I've been sketching cars for many years but I was not sure, if I can make it into a career. But I don't lose. Either I win or I wait until I win. So I did the same in 2012. You are supposed to find a job after completing your engineering in first class. But I stayed home. Everyone at home was disappointed. They were contacting relatives to get me a job. I was confused, "am I fooling myself?" A cocktail feeling of guilt, distress and uncertainty was the only thing I was waking up to, every day. But I had hope, confidence to be specific. I asked my mom and dad for one chance. "If don't get admission at NID this year, I will take it out of my head and find a job." They had to agree.
I knew this was my only chance, so I tried not to fuck up. I filled the form, I attended the exam, I passed, I made a portfolio and a model, I attended the studio test and the interview. And every step I mentioned in the previous sentence had intervals of months of uncertainty, mild depression and wait in them. And everything has to pay off somewhere. I got the admission. All the uncertainty in my life, I just picked it up in one hand threw it away. One thing I knew after this was that the biggest problem in my life till now, was solved and every other problem that'd occur after that was a piece of cake. So the year 2013 in months was not only a transition from depression to satisfaction but also a major transition in my life from uncertain to certain. God, this year was like a movie!
This was my 2013. How was yours?
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